Goodbye To You
Striped Sweater: Target, Chambray Button-up: J.Crew Factory, Wide-leg Flares: Gap Outlet, Shoes: Vince Camuto, Watch: Nixon “Spur” in Rosegold, Necklace: Forever 21, Lips: Jouer Gloss in “Birchbox Pink”, Sunglasses: TOMS.
January 1st 2012 — Moving Day & New Year’s Day
Early Sunday morning my husband and I loaded up into our Durango with one very angry cat, an excited puppy and quite a few clothes and shoes. What more would you expect?
It was undoubtedly the hardest day of my life. All the tears and reckless sobbing couldn’t heal the massive wound punched into my chest as we backed out of my parents driveway and left them in the rear view mirror. My last view of them as we turned the corner was through glittering tears as they held each other outside the house.
I then spent the next hour taking turns with the cat crying and wailing. It’s a miracle that I don’t look like a total mess in these pictures, taken later that day.
Leaving my parents, sister, grandparents and my friends behind will hurt for months with the same squeezing pressure in my heart that I feel now. I literally turned to my husband after awhile and flatly asked if we could just forget the whole thing, turn around and never mention Oklahoma again.
Life doesn’t work like that though. Life moves forward, and distance and time will eventually separate us all. I have to keep reminding myself that we didn’t not come to this decision lightly. That we are bettering our lives and the lives of our future children (that may or may not ever exist … ahem.) by moving out of state. We have a 5 year plan in effect — if in that time we are not happy and doing well than we will come home.
(and hopefully by then I’ll have stopped crying.)
To follow along on our trek out to Oklahoma, please follow the hashtag #TheTaylorsMoveMidwest via Twitter and Instagram, I expect it to be a fun road-trip filled with adventures! Currently we’re still in Bakersfield getting ready to head out East through Arizona — I see cacti in my future (I almost typed “cactuses”).
